Dear Sean,

A year ago today, hell, 6 months ago, I wouldn't expect we'd even be talking...much less getting into our personal lives. To be honest, everyone tells me I shouldn't waste my time talking to you, and that I'm just going to get sucked into more emotional bullshit and drama that I don't need to deal with...but I can't just drop you like that. For whatever reason, I still care about you and want you in my life. You hurt me a lot in the past, but I got over that awhile ago. I still think you lost interest in me when you found out I wouldn't sleep with you. You say it's because we were too different, but, honestly, that didn't bother you until I stopped you that one day. And it was downhill from there. I appreciate you're recognition of being an asshole, and I see you're a good guy...but I just don't want to come back to you for anything more than a friendship. To be honest, the fact that we're even as close as we are as friends right now blows my mind. I wish you'd stop alluding to wanting to hook up with me, though...I made it clear I wasn't interested and I'd like you to understand that. I think you keep forgetting you were my first kiss; my first boyfriend. Everything was weird and new for me and you had no idea...we didn't communicate at all. We were never meant to be together romantically. When you told me the other night that you want me now than ever before, all I could figure is that now I'm sexually active and drink and smoke, so you have a chance. I hope you realized you don't. Sean, it would just be too weird...and, really, truthfully, if I met you today I wouldn't go after you. I'm confident now, and am making myself learn to be picky. You know that, though...I told you that. I do appreciate your friendship though...I honestly do. I just think our experiences together have been strange, and never really natural. ...you probably disagree.

Sincerely,
Me