Dear Ian,

You're only around for a few more days and I'm afraid of never seeing you again. You'll never understand how much the last few weeks mean to me. I realize that we were never dating, and I did my best to not get attached. I don't think I am, and I made a conscious effort not to fall for you. I do know, however, that if we were both living in the same city permanently I would have fallen hard awhile ago. You've been treating me better than anyone I've ever been involved with. You're one of the first guys in a long time who hasn't made me cry. And maybe that's because we haven't been around each other long enough...maybe if we were still around each other a month from now you'd have the chance to really hurt me and confuse me just like previous guys...but for some reason I doubt that. I like hanging out with you, and I like spending the night. I was really surprised the day I after I spent the night for the second time...when you wanted to spend the day with me. I wasn't expecting that at all. Even though we're not together, and really nothing more than friends with benefits, I guess, this has been more of a legitimate relationship than I've had in over a year. You made me realize what I can have. I've always known there are good guys out there...I know a ton, but thanks to you now I feel like I can find one to be with. I don't want to settle for 1am calls anymore. You said we'll see each other before you leave, and I hope that's true. Thank you for giving me good memories that I can look back on without any regret. Thank you for walking me home that night, and for holding my hand as we walked down the street. Thank you for letting me be myself, and laughing at all the weird things I do. Thank you for remembering pretty much everything I say...it really amazes me. Thank you for making me breakfast. Just...thank you. You probably have no idea how all of this has made me feel. You're sweet and wonderful and...I'll never forget you. Good luck with all of your awesome plans. I do hope we'll cross paths again one day.

I really will miss you,
-Me.