Dear Ryan,

It was so great to see you up here...and I love how much your parents like me. Sometimes I feel like the adopted daughter, and sometimes I feel like the girlfriend of 2 years. We get along great and you're honestly one of my best friends. I feel like if I met you now maybe I'd have a crush on you, but I've known you for so long (4 years!) that to me you'll always be my good friend I can cuddle with whenever I want. I'm completely comfortable around you, too...You're one of two guys I fart around. And while that might not seem like a nice point to you, it really is a compliment. Sometimes I worry that you like me and that somethings going to happen to make things awkward between us. I couldn't imagine not having you as a friend. Honestly. So sometimes I talk about boy problems or do something else to make sure you know I don't want to date you. Maybe that makes me a bitch, but I can't fathom the idea of hurting you or not having you in my life. Maybe we will end up getting married like we joke about all the time. To be honest, I couldn't imagine having sex with you, but I wouldn't mind living with you the rest of my life....you make some good spaghetti.

Love,
Me