Dear Paul,

You're the first person I've slept with since Ian. And the only other guy I've kissed since Ian was Tim...and that's not something I'd ever want to do again. You're a really, really nice guy...as far as I can tell. And I'm comparing you with Ian which is so weird to me because I've never compared guys before...probably because I've never had a really good guy to compare anyone else to. Ian would have talked to me more, and wanted me to spend the night. I didn't get that from you....but I shouldn't have. I don't know what I'm looking for and I think it's just that I want to date you...or at least continuously hook up with you, and hang out with you.................like it was with Ian. You're very cute and I really enjoyed the other night. You're actually the first guy since my ex-Sami to shower with me. Weird. It's also always nice to be fed in the morning. =) I liked the art even you were doing today. It's really awesome that you do that, and care so much. I'd like to paint with you sometime....maybe you can teach me art and I can teach you accordion. But I feel like I'm getting ahead of myself. I mean...that was a hickey on your neck, right?

From,

Me